It’s kind of scary to think.
“I’m halfway through my Junior year. That means I’m almost to Senior year. High school is almost over.”
Okay, it may a slight exaggeration because I still have a good year and ½ of high school left, but I mean, I’m more than halfway done with high school.
Almost 3 years ago, I dreaded leaving the safe haven of middle school. I didn’t want to go to school of over 3,000 students where I didn’t know more than ½ the people I walked by. I didn’t want to get lost on the campus of endless classrooms. I didn’t want to lose my best friends. I was content to staying where I was. Now, I realize I couldn’t have been more wrong.
Everything has changed for the better. I made more best friends and we’re closer than ever. My academic level has risen past my expectations. I’ve found what I’m passionate about doing. The cloudy future has cleared some what, but still, I don’t know what the future is looking like. Right now, it looks like a ball of plain Play-Doh that has just been mashed by my little cousins. I can’t distinguish a single feature. I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself and my life. There are those people that know exactly what they wanted to do and be since they were little. I am definitely not that person. I have no idea what I want to do..
But before I get totally ahead of myself, I have some important decisions to make regarding senior year. What classes should I take for senior year? Should I take the grueling path of AP classes? Or should I tone down and take the same amount of AP classes? The possibilities are endless
AP Spanish 4? AP English 4? AP Calculus BC? AP Stats? AP Psychology? AP Gov/Econ?
Yikes. That looks beyond scary. 6 AP classes going into senior year? The important year that leads into my college years, another 4 years of the unknown where I find more about myself. Where the path will start to clear just a little bit more. Should I work myself into the ground or should I take the route of relaxation?
I am horrible at decisions. I’m too indecisive. I’m scared of making the wrong choice. I don’t know what I’m going to do and I have only a couple days left to decide.
Sometimes I just wished that my school didn’t offer SO many options. To me, it seems like TOO much. I shouldn’t be complaining about having too many options because my cousin from another state has only 2 choices of AP. I’m fortunate to have over 15 options, but I can’t decide!
What to do…..